I would like to ask you why you write.

You explain, that you become embraced by something, the purpose disappears, you forget everything, and then it feels simple like:

• staying healthy
• observing your own thoughts
• colouring this sheet of paper
• filling something up and pouring something out
• finding insights, then evaluate, and next develop.

And you wonder about this:
"Where is the balance between underestimating oneself and excelling?"

I suggest this question is one too many at the moment.