You feel a calling to tell and obligated to ask questions. One of these is:

"Once again, I would like so much to know the difference between dreaming and meditation."

The dream reveals your conscience and shows your responsibility. Meditation creates presence, honours the love at the center of every action, shows your inner self and the invisible midline, the balance, the knife edge, the YES-AND.

You ask me:

"Can I download all this, or how can I get there, when I need it?"

I must answer for now that you tell from there, you ask from there, you experience from there, you evolve from there and see your projections from there. The path, that you are looking for, is paved with contentment and gratitude. One of the ways to find it is to ask yourself, if you judge others and if you believe, that they judge you?