I hear you tell, that the vicar in the church preached, that you are beforehand forgiven, born free and have reached the goal already.
However, you still ask questions about all that, which you do not yet know, and about how everything will turn out eventually.

"Is the cat in the box dead or alive?"

You will not discover the answer, until you open the box.

"What is reality?"

You may say, that facts are accepted fiction.
This implies, that you have options all the time.
If you now know, what you did not know, this special option will be accepted by you.

Then you answer me, that as long as the options are still there, you are not sure of which reality to accept.